space is a hard place

I was nine years old when my seizures started to get worse. They started at age eight, but then they got worse. I would get teased about how i would stare off into space and just wake up sometimes with people giving me weird looks. It really hurt! When I hit pueburty that was my hell! I would wake up in people's laps or on the floor and I was unable to control myself and I was having full body seizures! I sometimes feel like my life has fallen down the drain to hell. Since I was diagnose with epilepsy it has been holding me back from many things like dance recitals, and a driver's liscense and worse; I sometimes can't go to school! But I have to suck it up and take 17 pills per day. But in the morning I look up and look in the mirrior and think to myself "Don't think it girl. your not going to die of a seizure today. No!your not!" and there is one thing that keeps me smiling. And that would be my friends and family! My friends make sure i stay alive and okay and my family has stopped and saved my life constantly and I think to my self "I am loved and I have to take care o f myself for me and the ones i love!" I am inspired by their care and love for me